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<s> I TELL YOU I'VE NOT SHUT AN EYE IN SLEEP SINCE I DID IT AND I DON'T BELIEVE I EVER WILL AGAIN UNTIL I GET PAST ALL WAKING </s>
<s> SOMETIMES IT'S HIS FACE BUT MOST GENERALLY IT'S HERS </s>
<s> I'M NEVER WITHOUT ONE OR THE OTHER BEFORE ME </s>
<s> HE LOOKS FROWNING AND BLACK LIKE BUT SHE HAS A KIND O' SURPRISE UPON HER FACE </s>
<s> AY THE WHITE LAMB SHE MIGHT WELL BE SURPRISED WHEN SHE READ DEATH ON A FACE THAT HAD SELDOM LOOKED ANYTHING BUT LOVE UPON HER BEFORE </s>
<s> BUT IT WAS SARAH'S FAULT AND MAY THE CURSE OF A BROKEN MAN PUT A BLIGHT ON HER AND SET THE BLOOD ROTTING IN HER VEINS </s>
<s> IT'S NOT THAT I WANT TO CLEAR MYSELF </s>
<s> I KNOW THAT I WENT BACK TO DRINK LIKE THE BEAST THAT I WAS </s>
<s> BUT SHE WOULD HAVE FORGIVEN ME SHE WOULD HAVE STUCK AS CLOSE TO ME AS A ROPE TO A BLOCK IF THAT WOMAN HAD NEVER DARKENED OUR DOOR </s>
<s> FOR SARAH CUSHING LOVED ME THAT'S THE ROOT OF THE BUSINESS SHE LOVED ME UNTIL ALL HER LOVE TURNED TO POISONOUS HATE WHEN SHE KNEW THAT I THOUGHT MORE OF MY WIFE'S FOOTMARK IN THE MUD THAN I DID OF HER WHOLE BODY AND SOUL </s>
<s> THERE WERE THREE SISTERS ALTOGETHER </s>
<s> THE OLD ONE WAS JUST A GOOD WOMAN THE SECOND WAS A DEVIL AND THE THIRD WAS AN ANGEL </s>
<s> SARAH WAS THIRTY THREE AND MARY WAS TWENTY NINE WHEN I MARRIED </s>
<s> WE WERE JUST AS HAPPY AS THE DAY WAS LONG WHEN WE SET UP HOUSE TOGETHER AND IN ALL LIVERPOOL THERE WAS NO BETTER WOMAN THAN MY MARY </s>
<s> AND THEN WE ASKED SARAH UP FOR A WEEK AND THE WEEK GREW INTO A MONTH AND ONE THING LED TO ANOTHER UNTIL SHE WAS JUST ONE OF OURSELVES </s>
<s> QUOTE I WAS BLUE RIBBON AT THAT TIME AND WE WERE PUTTING A LITTLE MONEY BY AND ALL WAS AS BRIGHT AS A NEW DOLLAR </s>
<s> MY GOD WHOEVER WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT IT COULD HAVE COME TO THIS </s>
<s> WHOEVER WOULD HAVE DREAMED IT </s>
<s> I USED TO BE HOME FOR THE WEEK ENDS VERY OFTEN AND SOMETIMES IF THE SHIP WERE HELD BACK FOR CARGO I WOULD HAVE A WHOLE WEEK AT A TIME AND IN THIS WAY I SAW A DEAL OF MY SISTER IN LAW SARAH </s>
<s> SHE WAS A FINE TALL WOMAN BLACK AND QUICK AND FIERCE WITH A PROUD WAY OF CARRYING HER HEAD AND A GLINT FROM HER EYE LIKE A SPARK FROM A FLINT </s>
<s> BUT WHEN LITTLE MARY WAS THERE I HAD NEVER A THOUGHT OF HER AND THAT I SWEAR AS I HOPE FOR GOD'S MERCY </s>
<s> IT HAD SEEMED TO ME SOMETIMES THAT SHE LIKED TO BE ALONE WITH ME OR TO COAX ME OUT FOR A WALK WITH HER BUT I HAD NEVER THOUGHT ANYTHING OF THAT </s>
<s> BUT ONE EVENING MY EYES WERE OPENED </s>
<s> I HAD COME UP FROM THE SHIP AND FOUND MY WIFE OUT BUT SARAH AT HOME </s>
<s> WHERE'S MARY </s>
<s> I ASKED </s>
<s> OH SHE HAS GONE TO PAY SOME ACCOUNTS </s>
<s> I WAS IMPATIENT AND PACED UP AND DOWN THE ROOM </s>
<s> CAN'T YOU BE HAPPY FOR FIVE MINUTES WITHOUT MARY JIM SAYS SHE </s>
<s> QUOTE IT'S A BAD COMPLIMENT TO ME THAT YOU CAN'T BE CONTENTED WITH MY SOCIETY FOR SO SHORT A TIME QUOTE </s>
<s> THAT'S ALL RIGHT MY LASS SAID I PUTTING OUT MY HAND TOWARDS HER IN A KINDLY WAY BUT SHE HAD IT IN BOTH HERS IN AN INSTANT AND THEY BURNED AS IF THEY WERE IN A FEVER </s>
<s> I LOOKED INTO HER EYES AND I READ IT ALL THERE </s>
<s> THERE WAS NO NEED FOR HER TO SPEAK NOR FOR ME EITHER </s>
<s> I FROWNED AND DREW MY HAND AWAY </s>
<s> THEN SHE STOOD BY MY SIDE IN SILENCE FOR A BIT AND THEN PUT UP HER HAND AND PATTED ME ON THE SHOULDER </s>
<s> STEADY OLD JIM SAID SHE AND WITH A KIND O' MOCKING LAUGH SHE RAN OUT OF THE ROOM </s>
<s> WELL FROM THAT TIME SARAH HATED ME WITH HER WHOLE HEART AND SOUL AND SHE IS A WOMAN WHO CAN HATE TOO </s>
<s> I WAS A FOOL TO LET HER GO ON BIDING WITH US A BESOTTED FOOL BUT I NEVER SAID A WORD TO MARY FOR I KNEW IT WOULD GRIEVE HER </s>
<s> THINGS WENT ON MUCH AS BEFORE BUT AFTER A TIME I BEGAN TO FIND THAT THERE WAS A BIT OF A CHANGE IN MARY HERSELF </s>
<s> SHE HAD ALWAYS BEEN SO TRUSTING AND SO INNOCENT BUT NOW SHE BECAME QUEER AND SUSPICIOUS WANTING TO KNOW WHERE I HAD BEEN AND WHAT I HAD BEEN DOING AND WHOM MY LETTERS WERE FROM AND WHAT I HAD IN MY POCKETS AND A THOUSAND SUCH FOLLIES </s>
<s> DAY BY DAY SHE GREW QUEERER AND MORE IRRITABLE AND WE HAD CEASELESS ROWS ABOUT NOTHING </s>
<s> I WAS FAIRLY PUZZLED BY IT ALL </s>
<s> SARAH AVOIDED ME NOW BUT SHE AND MARY WERE JUST INSEPARABLE </s>
<s> I CAN SEE NOW HOW SHE WAS PLOTTING AND SCHEMING AND POISONING MY WIFE'S MIND AGAINST ME BUT I WAS SUCH A BLIND BEETLE THAT I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND IT AT THE TIME </s>
<s> THEN I BROKE MY BLUE RIBBON AND BEGAN TO DRINK AGAIN BUT I THINK I SHOULD NOT HAVE DONE IT IF MARY HAD BEEN THE SAME AS EVER </s>
<s> SHE HAD SOME REASON TO BE DISGUSTED WITH ME NOW AND THE GAP BETWEEN US BEGAN TO BE WIDER AND WIDER </s>
<s> AND THEN THIS ALEC FAIRBAIRN CHIPPED IN AND THINGS BECAME A THOUSAND TIMES BLACKER </s>
<s> IT WAS TO SEE SARAH THAT HE CAME TO MY HOUSE FIRST BUT SOON IT WAS TO SEE US FOR HE WAS A MAN WITH WINNING WAYS AND HE MADE FRIENDS WHEREVER HE WENT </s>
<s> HE WAS A DASHING SWAGGERING CHAP SMART AND CURLED WHO HAD SEEN HALF THE WORLD AND COULD TALK OF WHAT HE HAD SEEN </s>
<s> HE WAS GOOD COMPANY I WON'T DENY IT AND HE HAD WONDERFUL POLITE WAYS WITH HIM FOR A SAILOR MAN SO THAT I THINK THERE MUST HAVE BEEN A TIME WHEN HE KNEW MORE OF THE POOP THAN THE FORECASTLE </s>
<s> FOR A MONTH HE WAS IN AND OUT OF MY HOUSE AND NEVER ONCE DID IT CROSS MY MIND THAT HARM MIGHT COME OF HIS SOFT TRICKY WAYS </s>
<s> AND THEN AT LAST SOMETHING MADE ME SUSPECT AND FROM THAT DAY MY PEACE WAS GONE FOREVER </s>
<s> IT WAS ONLY A LITTLE THING TOO </s>
<s> I HAD COME INTO THE PARLOUR UNEXPECTED AND AS I WALKED IN AT THE DOOR I SAW A LIGHT OF WELCOME ON MY WIFE'S FACE </s>
<s> BUT AS SHE SAW WHO IT WAS IT FADED AGAIN AND SHE TURNED AWAY WITH A LOOK OF DISAPPOINTMENT </s>
<s> THAT WAS ENOUGH FOR ME </s>
<s> THERE WAS NO ONE BUT ALEC FAIRBAIRN WHOSE STEP SHE COULD HAVE MISTAKEN FOR MINE </s>
<s> IF I COULD HAVE SEEN HIM THEN I SHOULD HAVE KILLED HIM FOR I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN LIKE A MADMAN WHEN MY TEMPER GETS LOOSE </s>
<s> MARY SAW THE DEVIL'S LIGHT IN MY EYES AND SHE RAN FORWARD WITH HER HANDS ON MY SLEEVE </s>
<s> QUOTE DON'T JIM DON'T QUOTE SAYS SHE </s>
<s> WHERE'S SARAH </s>
<s> I ASKED </s>
<s> IN THE KITCHEN SAYS SHE </s>
<s> SARAH SAYS I AS I WENT IN THIS MAN FAIRBAIRN IS NEVER TO DARKEN MY DOOR AGAIN </s>
<s> WHY NOT SAYS SHE </s>
<s> BECAUSE I ORDER IT </s>
<s> QUOTE OH QUOTE SAYS SHE QUOTE IF MY FRIENDS ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR THIS HOUSE THEN I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR IT EITHER QUOTE </s>
<s> YOU CAN DO WHAT YOU LIKE SAYS I BUT IF FAIRBAIRN SHOWS HIS FACE HERE AGAIN I'LL SEND YOU ONE OF HIS EARS FOR A KEEPSAKE </s>
<s> SHE WAS FRIGHTENED BY MY FACE I THINK FOR SHE NEVER ANSWERED A WORD AND THE SAME EVENING SHE LEFT MY HOUSE </s>
<s> WELL I DON'T KNOW NOW WHETHER IT WAS PURE DEVILRY ON THE PART OF THIS WOMAN OR WHETHER SHE THOUGHT THAT SHE COULD TURN ME AGAINST MY WIFE BY ENCOURAGING HER TO MISBEHAVE </s>
<s> ANYWAY SHE TOOK A HOUSE JUST TWO STREETS OFF AND LET LODGINGS TO SAILORS </s>
<s> FAIRBAIRN USED TO STAY THERE AND MARY WOULD GO ROUND TO HAVE TEA WITH HER SISTER AND HIM </s>
<s> HOW OFTEN SHE WENT I DON'T KNOW BUT I FOLLOWED HER ONE DAY AND AS I BROKE IN AT THE DOOR FAIRBAIRN GOT AWAY OVER THE BACK GARDEN WALL LIKE THE COWARDLY SKUNK THAT HE WAS </s>
<s> I SWORE TO MY WIFE THAT I WOULD KILL HER IF I FOUND HER IN HIS COMPANY AGAIN AND I LED HER BACK WITH ME SOBBING AND TREMBLING AND AS WHITE AS A PIECE OF PAPER </s>
<s> THERE WAS NO TRACE OF LOVE BETWEEN US ANY LONGER </s>
<s> I COULD SEE THAT SHE HATED ME AND FEARED ME AND WHEN THE THOUGHT OF IT DROVE ME TO DRINK THEN SHE DESPISED ME AS WELL </s>
<s> WELL SARAH FOUND THAT SHE COULD NOT MAKE A LIVING IN LIVERPOOL SO SHE WENT BACK AS I UNDERSTAND TO LIVE WITH HER SISTER IN CROYDON AND THINGS JOGGED ON MUCH THE SAME AS EVER AT HOME </s>
<s> AND THEN CAME THIS LAST WEEK AND ALL THE MISERY AND RUIN </s>
<s> IT WAS IN THIS WAY </s>
<s> WE HAD GONE ON THE MAY DAY FOR A ROUND VOYAGE OF SEVEN DAYS BUT A HOGSHEAD GOT LOOSE AND STARTED ONE OF OUR PLATES SO THAT WE HAD TO PUT BACK INTO PORT FOR TWELVE HOURS </s>
<s> I LEFT THE SHIP AND CAME HOME THINKING WHAT A SURPRISE IT WOULD BE FOR MY WIFE AND HOPING THAT MAYBE SHE WOULD BE GLAD TO SEE ME SO SOON </s>
<s> THE THOUGHT WAS IN MY HEAD AS I TURNED INTO MY OWN STREET AND AT THAT MOMENT A CAB PASSED ME AND THERE SHE WAS SITTING BY THE SIDE OF FAIRBAIRN THE TWO CHATTING AND LAUGHING WITH NEVER A THOUGHT FOR ME AS I STOOD WATCHING THEM FROM THE FOOTPATH </s>
<s> I TELL YOU AND I GIVE YOU MY WORD FOR IT THAT FROM THAT MOMENT I WAS NOT MY OWN MASTER AND IT IS ALL LIKE A DIM DREAM WHEN I LOOK BACK ON IT </s>
<s> I HAD BEEN DRINKING HARD OF LATE AND THE TWO THINGS TOGETHER FAIRLY TURNED MY BRAIN </s>
<s> THERE'S SOMETHING THROBBING IN MY HEAD NOW LIKE A DOCKER'S HAMMER BUT THAT MORNING I SEEMED TO HAVE ALL NIAGARA WHIZZING AND BUZZING IN MY EARS </s>
<s> QUOTE WELL I TOOK TO MY HEELS AND L. RAN AFTER THE CAB </s>
<s> I HAD A HEAVY OAK STICK IN MY HAND AND I TELL YOU I SAW RED FROM THE FIRST BUT AS I RAN I GOT CUNNING TOO AND HUNG BACK A LITTLE TO SEE THEM WITHOUT BEING SEEN </s>
<s> THEY PULLED UP SOON AT THE RAILWAY STATION </s>
<s> THERE WAS A GOOD CROWD ROUND THE BOOKING OFFICE SO I GOT QUITE CLOSE TO THEM WITHOUT BEING SEEN </s>
<s> THEY TOOK TICKETS FOR NEW BRIGHTON </s>
<s> SO DID I BUT I GOT IN THREE CARRIAGES BEHIND THEM </s>
<s> WHEN WE REACHED IT THEY WALKED ALONG THE PARADE AND I WAS NEVER MORE THAN A HUNDRED YARDS FROM THEM </s>
<s> AT LAST I SAW THEM HIRE A BOAT AND START FOR A ROW FOR IT WAS A VERY HOT DAY AND THEY THOUGHT NO DOUBT THAT IT WOULD BE COOLER ON THE WATER </s>
<s> IT WAS JUST AS IF THEY HAD BEEN GIVEN INTO MY HANDS </s>
<s> THERE WAS A BIT OF A HAZE AND YOU COULD NOT SEE MORE THAN A FEW HUNDRED YARDS </s>
<s> I HIRED A BOAT FOR MYSELF AND I PULLED AFTER THEM </s>
<s> I COULD SEE THE BLUR OF THEIR CRAFT BUT THEY WERE GOING NEARLY AS FAST AS I AND THEY MUST HAVE BEEN A LONG MILE FROM THE SHORE BEFORE I CAUGHT THEM UP </s>
<s> THE HAZE WAS LIKE A CURTAIN ALL ROUND US AND THERE WERE WE THREE IN THE MIDDLE OF IT </s>
<s> MY GOD SHALL I EVER FORGET THEIR FACES WHEN THEY SAW WHO WAS IN THE BOAT THAT WAS CLOSING IN UPON THEM </s>
<s> SHE SCREAMED OUT </s>
<s> HE SWORE LIKE A MADMAN AND JABBED AT ME WITH AN OAR FOR HE MUST HAVE SEEN DEATH IN MY EYES </s>
<s> I GOT PAST IT AND GOT ONE IN WITH MY STICK THAT CRUSHED HIS HEAD LIKE AN EGG </s>
<s> I WOULD HAVE SPARED HER PERHAPS FOR ALL MY MADNESS BUT SHE THREW HER ARMS ROUND HIM CRYING OUT TO HIM AND CALLING HIM ALEC </s>
<s> I STRUCK AGAIN AND SHE LAY STRETCHED BESIDE HIM </s>
<s> I WAS LIKE A WILD BEAST THEN THAT HAD TASTED BLOOD </s>
<s> IF SARAH HAD BEEN THERE BY THE LORD SHE SHOULD HAVE JOINED THEM </s>
<s> I PULLED OUT MY KNIFE AND WELL THERE </s>
<s> I'VE SAID ENOUGH </s>
<s> IT GAVE ME A KIND OF SAVAGE JOY WHEN I THOUGHT HOW SARAH WOULD FEEL WHEN SHE HAD SUCH SIGNS AS THESE OF WHAT HER MEDDLING HAD BROUGHT ABOUT </s>
<s> THEN I TIED THE BODIES INTO THE BOAT STOVE A PLANK AND STOOD BY UNTIL THEY HAD SUNK </s>
<s> I KNEW VERY WELL THAT THE OWNER WOULD THINK THAT THEY HAD LOST THEIR BEARINGS IN THE HAZE AND HAD DRIFTED OFF OUT TO SEA </s>
<s> I CLEANED MYSELF UP GOT BACK TO LAND AND JOINED MY SHIP WITHOUT A SOUL HAVING A SUSPICION OF WHAT HAD PASSED </s>
<s> THAT NIGHT I MADE UP THE PACKET FOR SARAH CUSHING AND NEXT DAY I SENT IT FROM BELFAST </s>
<s> THERE YOU HAVE THE WHOLE TRUTH OF IT </s>
<s> YOU CAN HANG ME OR DO WHAT YOU LIKE WITH ME BUT YOU CANNOT PUNISH ME AS I HAVE BEEN PUNISHED ALREADY </s>
<s> I CANNOT SHUT MY EYES BUT I SEE THOSE TWO FACES STARING AT ME STARING AT ME AS THEY STARED WHEN MY BOAT BROKE THROUGH THE HAZE </s>
<s> I KILLED THEM QUICK BUT THEY ARE KILLING ME SLOW AND IF I HAVE ANOTHER NIGHT OF IT I SHALL BE EITHER MAD OR DEAD BEFORE MORNING </s>
<s> YOU WON'T PUT ME ALONE INTO A CELL SIR </s>
<s> POR PITY'S SAKE DON'T AND MAY YOU BE TREATED IN YOUR DAY OF AGONY AS YOU TREAT ME NOW </s>
<s> WHAT IS THE MEANING OF IT WATSON SAID HOLMES SOLEMNLY ALS HE LAID DOWN THE PAPER </s>
<s> WHAT OBJECT IS SERVED BY THIS CIRCLE OF MISERY AND VIOLENCE AND FEAR </s>
<s> IT MUST TEND TO SOME END OR ELSE OUR UNIVERSE IS RULED BY CHANCE WHICH IS UNTHINKABLE </s>
<s> BUT WHAT END </s>
<s> THERE IS THE GREAT STANDING PERENNIAL PROBLEM TO WHICH HUMAN REASON IS AS FAR FROM AN ANSWER AS EVER QUOTE </s>