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"Black shapes crouched, lay, sat between the trees,leaning against the trunks, clinging to the earth, halfcoming out, half effaced within the dim light, in all theattitudes of pain, abandonment, and despair. Anothermine on the cliff went off, followed by a slight shudderof the soil under my feet. The work was going on. Thework! And this was the place where some of the helpershad withdrawn to die."They were dying slowly--it was very clear. Theywere not enemies, they were not criminals, they werenothing earthly now,--nothing but black shadows ofdisease and starvation, lying confusedly in the greenishgloom. Brought from all the recesses of the coast in allthe legality of time contracts, lost in uncongenial sur-roundings, fed on unfamiliar food, they sickened, be-came inefficient, and were then allowed to crawl away andrest. These moribund shapes were free as air--andnearly as thin. I began to distinguish the gleam of eyesunder the trees. Then, glancing down, I saw a facenear my hand. The black bones reclined at full lengthwith one shoulder against the tree, and slowly the eye-lids rose and the sunken eyes looked up at me, enormousand vacant, a kind of blind, white flicker in the depthsof the orbs, which died out slowly. The man seemedyoung--almost a boy--but you know with them it's hardto tell. I found nothing else to do but to offer him oneof my good Swede's ship's biscuits I had in my pocket.The fingers closed slowly on it and held--there was noother movement and no other glance. He had tied a bitof white worsted round his neck--Why? Where did heget it? Was it a badge--an ornament--a charm--apropitiatory act? Was there any idea at all connectedwith it? It looked startling round his black neck, thisbit of white thread from beyond the seas."Near the same tree two more bundles of acute anglessat with their legs drawn up. One, with his chinpropped on his knees, stared at nothing, in an intoler-able and appalling manner: his brother phantom restedits forehead, as if overcome with a great weariness; andall about others were scattered in every pose of contortedcollapse, as in some picture of a massacre or a pestilence.While I stood horror-struck, one of these creatures roseto his hands and knees, and went off on all-fours towardsthe river to drink. He lapped out of his hand, then satup in the sunlight, crossing his shins in front of him,and after a time let his woolly head fall on his breast-bone."I didn't want any more loitering in the shade, andI made haste towards the station. When near the build-ings I met a white man, in such an unexpected eleganceof get-up that in the first moment I took him for a sortof vision. I saw a high starched collar, white cuffs, alight alpaca jacket, snowy trousers, a clear necktie, andvarnished boots. No hat. Hair parted, brushed, oiled,under a green-lined parasol held in a big white hand.He was amazing, and had a penholder behind his ear."I shook hands with this miracle, and I learned he wasthe Company's chief accountant, and that all the book-keeping was done at this station. He had come out fora moment, he said, 'to get a breath of fresh air.' Theexpression sounded wonderfully odd, with its suggestionof sedentary desk-life. I wouldn't have mentioned thefellow to you at all, only it was from his lips that Ifirst heard the name of the man who is so indissolublyconnected with the memories of that time. Moreover, Irespected the fellow. Yes; I respected his collars, hisvast cuffs, his brushed hair. His appearance was cer-tainly that of a hairdresser's dummy; but in the greatdemoralization of the land he kept up his appearance.That's backbone. His starched collars and got-up shirt-fronts were achievements of character. He had been outnearly three years; and, later on, I could not help ask-ing him how he managed to sport such linen. He hadjust the faintest blush, and said modestly, 'I've beenteaching one of the native women about the station. Itwas difficult. She had a distaste for the work.' Thisman had verily accomplished something. And he wasdevoted to his books, which were in apple-pie order."Everything else in the station was in a muddle,--heads, things, buildings. Strings of dusty niggers withsplay feet arrived and departed; a stream of manu-factured goods, rubbishy cottons, beads, and brass-wireset into the depths of darkness, and in return came aprecious trickle of ivory."I had to wait in the station for ten days--an eternity.I lived in a hut in the yard, but to be out of the chaosI would sometimes get into the accountant's office. Itwas built of horizontal planks, and so badly put togetherthat, as he bent over his high desk, he was barred fromneck to heels with narrow strips of sunlight. There wasno need to open the big shutter to see. It was hotthere too; big flies buzzed fiendishly, and did not sting,but stabbed. I sat generally on the floor, while, offaultless appearance (and even slightly scented), perch-ing on a high stool, he wrote, he wrote. Sometimes hestood up for exercise. When a truckle-bed with a sickman (some invalided agent from up-country) was put inthere, he exhibited a gentle annoyance. 'The groans ofthis sick person,' he said, distract my attention. Andwithout that it is extremely difficult to guard againstclerical errors in this climate.'"One day he remarked, without lifting his head, 'Inthe interior you will no doubt meet Mr. Kurtz.' On myasking who Mr. Kurtz was, he said he was a first-classagent; and seeing my disappointment at this informa-tion, he added slowly, laying down his pen, 'He is a veryremarkable person.' Further questions elicited from himthat Mr. Kurtz was at present in charge of a tradingpost, a very important one, in the true ivory-country,at 'the very bottom of there. Sends in as much ivoryas all the others put together. . . .' He began towrite again. The sick man was too ill to groan. Theflies buzzed in a great peace."Suddenly there was a growing murmur of voices anda great tramping of feet. A caravan had come in. Aviolent babble of uncouth sounds burst out on the otherside of the planks. All the carriers were speaking to-gether, and in the midst of the uproar the lamentablevoice of the chief agent was heard 'giving it up' tear-fully for the twentieth time that day. . . . He roseslowly. 'What a frightful row,' he said. He crossedthe room gently to look at the sick man, and returning,said to me, 'He does not hear.' 'What! Dead?' Iasked, startled. 'No, not yet,' he answered, with greatcomposure. Then, alluding with a toss of the head tothe tumult in the station-yard, 'When one has got tomake correct entries, one comes to hate those savages--hate them to the death.' He remained thoughtful for amoment. 'When you see Mr. Kurtz,' he went on, 'tellhim from me that everything here'--he glanced at thedesk--'is very satisfactory. I don't like to write to him--with those messengers of ours you never know whomay get hold of your letter--at that Central Station.'He stared at me for a moment with his mild, bulgingeyes. 'Oh, he will go far, very far,' he began again.'He will be a somebody in the Administration beforelong. They, above--the Council in Europe, you know--mean him to be.'"He turned to his work. The noise outside had ceased,and presently in going out I stopped at the door. Inthe steady buzz of flies the homeward-bound agent waslying flushed and insensible; the other, bent over hisbooks, was making correct entries of perfectly correcttransactions; and fifty feet below the doorstep I couldsee the still tree-tops of the grove of death."Next day I left that station at last, with a caravanof sixty men, for a two-hundred-mile tramp."No use telling you much about that. Paths, paths,everywhere; a stamped-in network of paths spreadingover the empty land, through long grass, through burntgrass, through thickets, down and up chilly ravines, upand down stony hills ablaze with heat; and a solitude,a solitude, nobody, not a hut. The population hadcleared out a long time ago. Well, if a lot of mysteriousniggers armed with all kinds of fearful weapons sud-denly took to traveling on the road between Deal andGravesend, catching the yokels right and left to carryheavy loads for them, I fancy every farm and cottagethereabouts would get empty very soon. Only here thedwellings were gone too. Still I passed through severalabandoned villages. There's something patheticallychildish in the ruins of grass walls. Day after day, withthe stamp and shuffle of sixty pair of bare feet behindme, each pair under a 60-lb. load. Camp, cook, sleep,strike camp, march. Now and then a carrier dead inharness, at rest in the long grass near the path, withan empty water-gourd and his long staff lying by hisside. A great silence around and above. Perhaps onsome quiet night the tremor of far-off drums, sinking,swelling, a tremor vast, faint; a sound weird, appealing,suggestive, and wild--and perhaps with as profound ameaning as the sound of bells in a Christian country.Once a white man in an unbuttoned uniform, campingon the path with an armed escort of lank Zanzibaris,very hospitable and festive--not to say drunk. Waslooking after the upkeep of the road, he declared. Can'tsay I saw any road or any upkeep, unless the body of amiddle-aged negro, with a bullet-hole in the forehead,upon which I absolutely stumbled three miles farther on,may be considered as a permanent improvement. I hada white companion too, not a bad chap, but rather toofleshy and with the exasperating habit of fainting onthe hot hillsides, miles away from the least bit of shadeand water. Annoying, you know, to hold your own coatlike a parasol over a man's head while he is coming-to.I couldn't help asking him once what he meant by comingthere at all. 'To make money, of course. What doyou think?' he said, scornfully. Then he got fever, andhad to be carried in a hammock slung under a pole. Ashe weighed sixteen stone I had no end of rows with thecarriers. They jibbed, ran away, sneaked off with theirloads in the night--quite a mutiny. So, one evening,I made a speech in English with gestures, not one ofwhich was lost to the sixty pairs of eyes before me, andthe next morning I started the hammock off in front allright. An hour afterwards I came upon the whole con-cern wrecked in a bush--man, hammock, groans, blankets,horrors. The heavy pole had skinned his poor nose. Hewas very anxious for me to kill somebody, but therewasn't the shadow of a carrier near. I remembered theold doctor,--'It would be interesting for science towatch the mental changes of individuals, on the spot.'I felt I was becoming scientifically interesting. How-ever, all that is to no purpose. On the fifteenth day Icame in sight of the big river again, and hobbled intothe Central Station. It was on a back water surroundedby scrub and forest, with a pretty border of smelly mudon one side, and on the three others inclosed by a crazyfence of rushes. A neglected gap was all the gate ithad, and the first glance at the place was enough to letyou see the flabby devil was running that show. Whitemen with long staves in their hands appeared languidlyfrom amongst the buildings, strolling up to take a lookat me, and then retired out of sight somewhere. Oneof them, a stout, excitable chap with black mustaches,informed me with great volubility and many digressions,as soon as I told him who I was, that my steamer was atthe bottom of the river. I was thunderstruck. What,how, why? Oh, it was 'all right.' The 'manager him-self' was there. All quite correct. 'Everybody hadbehaved splendidly! splendidly!'--'you must,' he saidin agitation, 'go and see the general manager at once.He is waiting!'"I did not see the real significance of that wreck atonce. I fancy I see it now, but I am not sure--not atall. Certainly the affair was too stupid--when I thinkof it--to be altogether natural. Still. . . . But at themoment it presented itself simply as a confounded nui-sance. The steamer was sunk. They had started twodays before in a sudden hurry up the river with themanager on board, in charge of some volunteer skipper,and before they had been out three hours they tore thebottom out of her on stones, and she sank near the southbank. I asked myself what I was to do there, now myboat was lost. As a matter of fact, I had plenty to doin fishing my command out of the river. I had to setabout it the very next day. That, and the repairs whenI brought the pieces to the station, took some months."My first interview with the manager was curious. Hedid not ask me to sit down after my twenty-mile walkthat morning. He was commonplace in complexion, infeatures, in manners, and in voice. He was of middlesize and of ordinary build. His eyes, of the usual blue,
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