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would expect a lady's drawing-room to look, we had along quiet chat by the fireside. In the course of theseconfidences it became quite plain to me I had been repre-sented to the wife of the high dignitary, and goodnessknows to how many more people besides, as an excep-tional and gifted creature--a piece of good fortune forthe Company--a man you don't get hold of every day.Good heavens! and I was going to take charge of atwo-penny-halfpenny river-steamboat with a pennywhistle attached! It appeared, however, I was also oneof the Workers, with a capital--you know. Somethinglike an emissary of light, something like a lower sortof apostle. There had been a lot of such rot let loosein print and talk just about that time, and the excellentwoman, living right in the rush of all that humbug, gotcarried off her feet. She talked about 'weaning thoseignorant millions from their horrid ways,' till, upon myword, she made me quite uncomfortable. I ventured tohint that the Company was run for profit."'You forget, dear Charlie, that the laborer is worthyof his hire,' she said, brightly. It's queer how out oftouch with truth women are. They live in a world oftheir own, and there had never been anything like it,and never can be. It is too beautiful altogether, andif they were to set it up it would go to pieces beforethe first sunset. Some confounded fact we men havebeen living contentedly with ever since the day of cre-ation would start up and knock the whole thing over."After this I got embraced, told to wear flannel, besure to write often, and so on--and I left. In the street--I don't know why--a queer feeling came to me that Iwas an impostor. Odd thing that I, who used to clearout for any part of the world at twenty-four hours'notice, with less thought than most men give to the cross-ing of a street, had a moment--I won't say of hesitation,but of startled pause, before this commonplace affair.The best way I can explain it to you is by saying that,for a second or two, I felt as though, instead of goingto the center of a continent, I were about to set off forthe center of the earth."I left in a French steamer, and she called in everyblamed port they have out there, for, as far as I couldsee, the sole purpose of landing soldiers and custom-house officers. I watched the coast. Watching a coastas it slips by the ship is like thinking about an enigma.There it is before you--smiling, frowning, inviting,grand, mean, insipid, or savage, and always mute withan air of whispering, `Come and find out.' This one wasalmost featureless, as if still in the making, with anaspect of monotonous grimness. The edge of a colossaljungle, so dark-green as to be almost black, fringedwith white surf, ran straight, like a ruled line, far, faraway along a blue sea whose glitter was blurred by acreeping mist. The sun was fierce, the land seemed toglisten and drip with steam. Here and there grayish-whitish specks showed up, clustered inside the white surf,with a flag flying above them perhaps. Settlements somecenturies old, and still no bigger than pin-heads on theuntouched expanse of their background. We poundedalong, stopped, landed soldiers; went on, landed custom-house clerks to levy toll in what looked like a God-for-saken wilderness, with a tin shed and a flag-pole lost init; landed more soldiers--to take care of the custom-house clerks, presumably. Some, I heard, got drownedin the surf; but whether they did or not, nobody seemedparticularly to care. They were just flung out there,and on we went. Every day the coast looked the same,as though we had not moved; but we passed variousplaces--trading places--with names like Gran' BassamLittle Popo, names that seemed to belong to some sordidfarce acted in front of a sinister backcloth. The idle-ness of a passenger, my isolation amongst all these menwith whom I had no point of contact, the oily and lan-guid sea, the uniform somberness of the coast, seemedto keep me away from the truth of things, within thetoil of a mournful and senseless delusion. The voice ofthe surf heard now and then was a positive pleasure,like the speech of a brother. It was something natural,that had its reason, that had a meaning. Now and thena boat from the shore gave one a momentary contactwith reality. It was paddled by black fellows. Youcould see from afar the white of their eyeballs glisten-ing. They shouted, sang; their bodies streamed withperspiration; they had faces like grotesque masks--thesechaps; but they had bone, muscle, a wild vitality, an in-tense energy of movement, that was as natural and trueas the surf along their coast. They wanted no excusefor being there. They were a great comfort to look at.For a time I would feel I belonged still to a world ofstraightforward facts; but the feeling would not lastlong. Something would turn up to scare it away. Once,I remember, we came upon a man-of-war anchored offthe coast. There wasn't even a shed there, and shewas shelling the bush. It appears the French had oneof their wars going on thereabouts. Her ensign droppedlimp like a rag; the muzzles of the long eight-inch gunsstuck out all over the low hull; the greasy, slimy swellswung her up lazily and let her down, swaying her thinmasts. In the empty immensity of earth, sky, and water,there she was, incomprehensible, firing into a continent.Pop, would go one of the eight-inch guns; a small flamewould dart and vanish, a little white smoke would dis-appear, a tiny projectile would give a feeble screech--and nothing happened. Nothing could happen. Therewas a touch of insanity in the proceeding, a sense oflugubrious drollery in the sight; and it was not dissi-pated by somebody on board assuring me earnestly therewas a camp of natives--he called them enemies!--hiddenout of sight somewhere."We gave her her letters (I heard the men in thatlonely ship were dying of fever at the rate of threea day) and went on. We called at some more places withfarcical names, where the merry dance of death andtrade goes on in a still and earthy atmosphere as of anoverheated catacomb; all along the formless coast bor-dered by dangerous surf, as if Nature herself had triedto ward off intruders; in and out of rivers, streams ofdeath in life, whose banks were rotting into mud, whosewaters, thickened into slime, invaded the contorted man-groves, that seemed to writhe at us in the extremity ofan impotent despair. Nowhere did we stop long enoughto get a particularized impression, but the general senseof vague and oppressive wonder grew upon me. It waslike a weary pilgrimage amongst hints for night-mares."It was upward of thirty days before I saw the mouthof the big river. We anchored off the seat of the gov-ernment. But my work would not begin till some twohundred miles farther on. So as soon as I could I madea start for a place thirty miles higher up."I had my passage on a little sea-going steamer. Hercaptain was a Swede, and knowing me for a seaman,invited me on the bridge. He was a young man, lean,fair, and morose, with lanky hair and a shuffling gait.As we left the miserable little wharf, he tossed his headcontemptuously at the shore. 'Been living there?' heasked. I said, 'Yes.' 'Fine lot these government chaps--are they not?' he went on, speaking English withgreat precision and considerable bitterness. 'It is funnywhat some people will do for a few francs a month. Iwonder what becomes of that kind when it goes up coun-try?' I said to him I expected to see that soon. 'So-o-o!'he exclaimed. He shuffled athwart, keeping one eyeahead vigilantly. 'Don't be too sure,' he continued.'The other day I took up a man who hanged himselfon the road. He was a Swede, too.' 'Hanged himself!Why, in God's name?' I cried. He kept on looking outwatchfully. 'Who knows? The sun too much for him,or the country perhaps.'"At last we opened a reach. A rocky cliff appeared,mounds of turned-up earth by the shore, houses on ahill, others, with iron roofs, amongst a waste of excava-tions, or hanging to the declivity. A continuous noiseof the rapids above hovered over this scene of inhabiteddevastation. A lot of people, mostly black and naked,moved about like ants. A jetty projected into the river.A blinding sunlight drowned all this at times in a suddenrecrudescence of glare. 'There's your Company's sta-tion,' said the Swede, pointing to three wooden barrack-like structures on the rocky slope. 'I will send yourthings up. Four boxes did you say? So. Farewell.'"I came upon a boiler wallowing in the grass, thenfound a path leading up the hill. It turned aside forthe bowlders, and also for an undersized railway-trucklying there on its back with its wheels in the air. Onewas off. The thing looked as dead as the carcass ofsome animal. I came upon more pieces of decaying ma-chinery, a stack of rusty rails. To the left a clump oftrees made a shady spot, where dark things seemed tostir feebly. I blinked, the path was steep. A horn tootedto the right, and I saw the black people run. A heavyand dull detonation shook the ground, a puff of smokecame out of the cliff, and that was all. No change ap-peared on the face of the rock. They were building arailway. The cliff was not in the way or anything; butthis objectless blasting was all the work going on."A slight clinking behind me made me turn my head.Six black men advanced in a file, toiling up the path.They walked erect and slow, balancing small basketsfull of earth on their heads, and the clink kept time withtheir footsteps. Black rags were wound round theirloins, and the short ends behind wagged to and fro liketails. I could see every rib, the joints of their limbswere like knots in a rope; each had an iron collar onhis neck, and all were connected together with a chainwhose bights swung between them, rhythmically clinking.Another report from the cliff made me think suddenlyof that ship of war I had seen firing into a continent.It was the same kind of ominous voice; but these mencould by no stretch of imagination be called enemies.They were called criminals, and the outraged law, likethe bursting shells, had come to them, an insoluble mys-tery from over the sea. All their meager breasts pantedtogether, the violently dilated nostrils quivered, the eyesstared stonily uphill. They passed me within six inches,without a glance, with that complete, deathlike indif-ference of unhappy savages. Behind this raw matterone of the reclaimed, the product of the new forces atwork, strolled despondently, carrying a rifle by itsmiddle. He had a uniform jacket with one button off,and seeing a white man on the path, hoisted his weaponto his shoulder with alacrity. This was simple prudence,white men being so much alike at a distance that he couldnot tell who I might be. He was speedily reassured, andwith a large, white, rascally grin, and a glance at hischarge, seemed to take me into partnership in his exaltedtrust. After all, I also was a part of the great causeof these high and just proceedings."Instead of going up, I turned and descended to theleft. My idea was to let that chain-gang get out ofsight before I climbed the hill. You know I am not par-ticularly tender; I've had to strike and to fend off. I'vehad to resist and to attack sometimes--that's only oneway of resisting--without counting the exact cost, ac-cording to the demands of such sort of life as I had blun-dered into. I've seen the devil of violence, and the devilof greed, and the devil of hot desire; but, by all thestars! these were strong, lusty, red-eyed devils, thatswayed and drove men--men, I tell you. But as I stoodon this hillside, I foresaw that in the blinding sunshineof that land I would become acquainted with a flabby,pretending, weak-eyed devil of a rapacious and pitilessfolly. How insidious he could be, too, I was only tofind out several months later and a thousand milesfarther. For a moment I stood appalled, as though bya warning. Finally I descended the hill, obliquely, to-wards the trees I had seen."I avoided a vast artificial hole somebody had beendigging on the slope, the purpose of which I found itimpossible to divine. It wasn't a quarry or a sandpit,anyhow. It was just a hole. It might have been con-nected with the philanthropic desire of giving the crim-inals something to do. I don't know. Then I nearlyfell into a very narrow ravine, almost no more than ascar in the hillside. I discovered that a lot of importeddrainage-pipes for the settlement had been tumbled inthere. There wasn't one that was not broken. It wasa wanton smash-up. At last I got under the trees. Mypurpose was to stroll into the shade for a moment; butno sooner within than it seemed to me I had steppedinto a gloomy circle of some Inferno. The rapids werenear, and an uninterrupted, uniform, headlong, rushingnoise filled the mournful stillness of the grove, where nota breath stirred, not a leaf moved, with a mysterioussound--as though the tearing pace of the launched earthhad suddenly become audible.
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